Thursday, October 23, 2014

Ruby Sparks

First of all let me just say that I love love loved this movie to pieces! I'm no movie critic by any means... I likes what I likes and me likey this movie. The story is written by the adorable Zoe Kazan also plays the part of Ruby Sparks... very well I might add. Paul Dano (yum) plays Clavin a struggling writer who found fame at a very young age but is now suffering from lack of inspiration and cannot seem to re-create the success of his first novel. 

I don't want to give away too much of the story because it was delightful to watch.....
It was directed by Jonothan Dayton and Valerie Faris whom also directed Little Miss Sunshine also starring Paul Dano. I loved Little Miss Sunshine and they way it was filmed so I was super excited to see this little Romantic Comedy.

I'm a sucker for well written romantic comidies... I would be lying if I said I didn't. I'm "that girl" I suppose. I also love a well written story which Zoe Kazan did prove to do.

I also think it's adorbs that they fell in love for reals on the set while filming and are actually still together. They are the cutest underground Hollywood couple ever!

I have to say the movie did remind me a little of "500 Days of Summer" with a tad bit of "Submarine". I know everyone has seen Zooey Deschanel in "500 Days of Summer" but if you haven't seen "Submarine" then you should because it's written and directed so well and the sound track is amazeballs!

I feel in love with the imagery in this movie... the quotes are to die for too! I told you I'm a sucker for romantic comedies!! However, there are a lot of bad romantic comedies out there or "chick flicks" as some people like to call them... unfortunately I think all romantic comedies get a bum rap because they all get lumped into one category when in fact there are indeed some great ones that are out there. I mean isn't "Amelie" essentially a romantic comedy? My point exactly...

The movie got some flack because there were some prodoct placement ads peppered throughout the movie mainly by Apple. All I have to say about that is... "A girls gotta have some funds to make a movie." I mean... unless you are independantly wealthy and have a ton of cash to drop on a film then you have to get sponsors right? So wouldn't it make sense since the main character Calvin is a writter to have an Apple computer in a scene or two? Sheesh!

This is definatly a movie that I would purchase and watch over and over just because it would never get old to me. I'm obsessed with Zoe Kazan's wardrobe and adorable hair throughout the entire movie and who could get sick of looking at Paul Dano?!? There is also a fun cameo by Annette Benning and Antonio Banderas. It's worth renting via Netflix. I'd love to hear your comments on this movie. Have you seen it and did you adore it as much as I did? 


Monday, October 20, 2014

Little miss green thumb....

Happy Monday kittens! This is actually another old photo shoot that has never been seen... well maybe just one on Instagram. I'm bringing it out of the archives and dusting it off just for your viewing pleasure. I have to say... I wasn't quite happy with the way the images came out which is why I never posted them... but looking back at them now I have to say that I think I'm my own worst critic. I'm really picky and harsh on myself and sometimes I just need to learn to be okay with me. I mean these images are perfectly fine. They are honestly adorable.... I just need to learn to love myself a little bit more... flaws and all. 

What I am liking is this sweet little tomato cardigan that I borrowed from Sammi of The Soubrette Brunette. This photo shoot was taken in the heat of Summer so I was trying hard to "play it cool"... I'm so glad the weather is finally starting to cool off even if it is still in the high 80's it's a lot better than the 100's. I'm so looking forward to more Fall colored clothing and trends to come this Season. I've been MIA this past week trying to get some crocheting done but it always seems like there is something I have to either drop off (shipments) or pick up (plaques, yarn, stain etc). I swear... the majority of the time I'm running around when I should be producing. I'm a little scared of how I'm going to manage three Christmas Shows on top of keeping up with supplying stock for all my stores in Austin, Dallas, Houston and in Ohio. Whew! I'm learning a lot though... and business just keeps getting better. I feel like I should be saving more but there are always bills to pay.  

As you can see from the reflection in the glass that I was using a tripod... Oops! It's so much harder and takes way longer to capture you own images. I love it when The Mister helps me out and snaps a few... but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. It was totally appropriate to be wearing this tomato cardi because this was when our little backyard garden was producing loads and loads of them! We had more tomato's than we knew what to do with... I love tomato's so I was quite alright with it myself. Now I wish we had planted more in our Fall garden... sadly we have none. However we do have a ton of Basil which I love. I'm totally going to can a bunch more pesto sauce and give them out as Christmas gifts. Perfecto!

I think over the next few months I'll be concentrating more on my business and less on blogging so you may only be seeing one post a week for awhile. This is when shit gets real and your friends know that you're not going to be seeing them till the New Year. That's the way life is in the crafting world. Oh snap!!! I don't think I announced that I was interviewed for Knitting Daily TV on PBS. It's a small little interview that will most likely be edited down to roughly two minutes or less but it should be airing in the Spring hopefully if everything goes right. More on that later....

Hope everyone is having an excellent start to their work week. Does anyone have any awesome Holiday plans for Halloween or Thanksgiving? I'll be spending my Thanksgiving in Houston with some dear crafty friends and their family. We will both be attending Pop Shop Houston's Christmas Show which we are all super stoked about. The Mister and I aren't going to do anything for Halloween this year... last year I threw a huge party and spent a small fortune on food, booze, decorations and costumes. This year we are keeping it low key... we didn't even get the decorations out from the crawl space and we totally plan on locking the doors and turning off our porch lights for Beggars Night. It's sad but the kids in our neighborhood are crazy scary and super aggressive. They totally snatch the candy right out of your hands and keep trying to come back for more like you're not supposed to recognize them or something... they're so bad! 

Cardigan: Borrowed from Sammi
Tank: Old Navy
Skirt: Forever 21
Shoes: Kohls
Scarf: Hobby Lobby

Monday, October 13, 2014

Indian Summer

Oh well Hello There! I'm such a happy gal right now.... have you ever had one of those moments in life where everything just seems to all fall into place? I've been having one of those moments for the past week and it's been surreal to say the least.

Life is pretty good right now... I have no complaints. It's pretty cray cray for me to think that this time (just one year ago) I made the biggest and one of the scariest decisions in my little old life. I decided to pack it up and quit my full time city position in order to pursure my dream of running my own business. It was something that I had always wanted to do and was always in the back of my mind but I was either not financially fit to leave my city job or was too sick (that's a whole other story). So I stayed and was miserable and grew more and more ill (not just physically but mentally). 

It got to a point that the stress of my position was so severe that I was having uncontrolled visual seizures and  was diagnosed with Epilepsy and was put on nine different seizure medications. I was told that this is what my life was going to be like and that was that. I quickly sank into a deep depresion which made matters worse. At that point I was having these visual seizures for a little over two years... I expeirenced visual hallucinations and distortions on a daily bases. Everyday, all day, 24 hours I felt like I was "tripping on acid". My world was upside down. The type of Epilepsy they diagnosed me with is called "Alice in Wonderland Syndrome" or also known as "Todd's Syndrome". I was relieved to know that I wasn't crazy... that what I was experiencing was real but also sad because yet again I had to endure another physical ailment and I felt that I had already been through so much in the past. 
(More on that later.)

I was a wreck... and the side effects of my anti-seizure medications were horrible. I couldn't think clearly at all. They managed to cut down the amount of visual seizures I had in a day but not the everyday distortions. The walls and floors appeared bowed out... like I was living in a fish tank. Objects looked like they were moving when they really weren't. I didn't drive for a little over a year so I realied on Matt and friends from work which I felt guilty about. I couldn't even function at work because my side effects from the medication was so intense that I found it hard to even hold a conversation or type or talk on the phone (which is about 95% of what I did at work). I couldn't even read anymore.... forget working out. My quality of life was zero, at some points I didn't even want to live anymore because living was just so hard. 

I gained about 25 pounds over the course of those three years (which made me even more depressed). I was a wreck and the worst part about it was that I felt my Doctor's weren't listening to me. I had lost all hope in life and turned to alcohol to numb the pain. I didn't go crazy on the alcohol or anything... lets just say I drank a lot of wine every night which also didn't help my depression. I swear there is a happy ending guys... I'm getting to that part.

The other day I came across some journals that I was writing in over those last three years and was shocked to read how depressed and how horrible my life was. Every entry was so sad... I could barely read them. I was such an unhappy person and I really don't think my friends or family ever really knew just how hard things were for me... how hard living really was. I mean how could they ya know? I literally had no quality of life. When I say I was depressed... I mean I was a functioning depressed person. I still got up, showered and did everything (that I could do) to make it through the day. I smiled through it all even when I didn't want to... so I think it was hard for people to comprehend the hurt and pain I was going through on a daily basis.

So here's the happy part... this is how I changed my life around. I made a plan... I decided that I didn't want to live this type of life any longer. I slowly weened myself off of my anti-seizure medication (totally don't do this unless talking to your doctor first). I worked hard on my little crochet business (which was a fun side business at the time) It was probably the only thing that kept me happy besides Matt and some really close friends cheering me on from the sidelines. I begged Matt to let me quit my job over the course of that last year... and finally were at a point that we thought the time was right and I put in my "two week notice." It was the best feeling in the world. I have to say... I felt a HUGE weight being lifted from my chest.

Over the next year I worked my ass off trying to get my crochet taxidermy into local stores and boutiques. I built a customer base, tried to apply to every craft show and art fair that I could. 
I re-vamped my Etsy store which really helped  and really just put myself out there. I literally walked into stores and showed people my work and made "cold calls"... I did everything I could and it slowely started paying off. 

Little by little my seizures and distortions started to go away. I was able to start jogging and working out again. I always ate pretty well... so that wasn't a real big issue but the drinking was. The funny thing is was that I was happy now and I didn't even really feel the need to drink anymore. Don't get me wrong... I still love my wine but I no longer drink to get drunk anymore which is a big thing! I slowly started to shead those pounds and little by little transformed into the woman I was before. I don't think I'll ever be as tiny as I was before but honestly I'm cool with that.... I actually have muscle now! 

It's hard to image my life before... it's actually strange really. I can't believe all that ever happened to me... it's like I was watching it happen from the outside looking in. Like I was watching a really bad Lifetime movie or something. I literally feel like I lost three years of my life... those I can never get back. To think it was all caused by severe stress most likely due to a horrible work enviroment and a few tragic life events piled on top of that. My point is... is that the body does strange things when under severe stress and depression. I knew in my heart that I couldn't live like that and I thank the stars above that I was given a second chance in life. 

Now I want to make up for those three years that I lost so I am livin' life to the fullest. I am such a happy go lucky person at heart but somewhere I lost that hope and stopped living my life to it's upmost potential. I really think you just have to never loose hope and have faith in yourself. I was lucky to have Matt and a few close friends at my side throughout my whole ordel. I don't really talk about my personal life all that much or go into deep detail about the hardships that I've experienced in life but I recently had a dear old friend contact me out of the blue in search of advice and help because she too is going through a similar situation and read a little bit about my past experience with stress and or depression on my blog and was looking to talk. First of all... let me just say that I'm amazed sometimes that people actually read my blog and secondly that I could be "that person" to help another person in a time of need. I would never have thought that my personal experiences would ever trigger some spark of emotion or connection in anyone else. Of course I was happy to help out and listen to her story... heck, I wish there was someone out there that I could have reached out to in my time of need but there really wasn't. There was no manual or book writen on how to deal with the emotional aspect of my Epilepsy. Yes there were support groups but what I was going through was so different than what other patients who are diagnosed with Epilepsy go through.... so I felt I couldn't relate.

That is all in the past now... I'm ready to close that chapter in my life. I want to be the best person I can be stress free! I make my own rules in life and live by my own code. I know... what a crazy story right? If you even made it to this point in my post.... lol! In a year I have completely changed.... I worked for it and will continue to pursue my goals and dreams. I'm excited to see what I can acheive over the course of this next year. Life really is bitter sweet and I guess it's true that you can't have the bad without the good. I know now that the body and mind is reziliant. Life is what you make of it... we are only on this Earth for a short while and I intend to take advantage of every moment. Every sunrise and sunset... every shooting star.

I hope (if anyone reads this horribly long winded story) that my story may help inspire others to reach out and share their stories with others as well. I want to continue to be honest with an open mind and open heart when writing my posts. I would also love to hear other peoples stories as well and hopefully we can continue to inspire one another. 

As you can see I'm extremely happy in these images.... I'm so looking forward to this Holiday Season full of love and laughter with good friends and family. I hope everyone else is having a great week as well. Thanks for stopping by my little ol' bloggy. 


Dress: Thrifted
Cardigan: Francesscas
Boots: Target
Hat: Target
Sunnies: A-Town
Necklace: Poppy & Fern

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Instagram lately....

Happy Humpday from "Big Tex".

This past weekend The Mister and I went to visit some old pals in Dallas, Texas. We ended up going to the State Fair and had a blast. I regret nothing.....

This was the highlight of all the Fair rides.... 

Tuesday Matt and I celebrated 8 years of marriage! 

Here's our adorable Anniversary Picture.

We've also been enjoying cooler weather here in Austin, Texas. I've been taking advantage of it in the afternoons by decompressing with a glass of wine on the back porch. This guy came along.....

Our chickens have been taking advantage of the weather as well. We did have a death in our feathered family a month back. Lola passed probably due to heat stroke but we aren't positive. It was a little tragic... but that's life "on the farm". 

Our light Brahmas are super huge and strong.... they are such goofy creatures.

This last month we had the pleasure of watching our neighbors adorable yorkie "Lapu". 

This is Lucy "my crochet buddy" taking as little nap next to me on the couch. This is a pretty normal occurance at the Hart residence.

Plant love... I picked up two new plants and hanging pots from Ikea the last time we were in that neck of the woods. Plants make everything better.

I spent almost all last week driving around and re-stocking all the stores that I sell at in Austin. 
ACL was last weekend and this next week and I want to make sure I have plenty o' heads to sell!

With re-stocking comes the daunting task of staining hundreds of plaques. This is seriously the worst part of my job. Not only do I have to sand the rough edges down I also have to peel all the stickers off each one and stain both sides. It takes days..... 

Sophie loungin' on the couch next to me as I blog away..... she is sitting next to me right now.

I picked up a few new items this last month. I bought these awesome white rimmed sunnies and nail art from Mod Cloth. I also bought white nail lacquer and blue eye liner. I've been experimenting more with makeup and am having so much fun... I'm saving these nail decals for next Summer.

White hot in this adorable vintage frock!

Lastly, I've been drinking a lot more water and a lot less booze. I'm trying to be fit and healthy on the inside and outside. 

Hope everyone is having a delightful week... 
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